Even when I know that I really shouldn’t
Every now and then
My Favourite drug
Drugs me once again
Like morphine to the brain
You take me on a high
That I can’t explain
Benumbed by this high
Every time that I say your name
Can you feel my pain?
I look at You
I look at us
The us we used to be…
We were a team
Before the you the I in between
Before your love was opiate
And all I was to you was just another fiend
When I still craved your soul and not your being
We were happy
I know we were
The love we shared
Was like my soul had known your soul lifetimes ago
God, I loved you…
There was no truer truth
Every fiber of my being had love for you
I just want to stop the pain
Clenching my pillow to my chest
Hoping it’ll do like you did and just go away
Thoughts of what happened to forever,
What happened to our infinity
All the promises broken
Wishing I did things differently.
Would that even make a difference to you?
I’ve tried to… I really want to…
Pick up the pieces and move on
Instead I’ll just lie here until I don’t have to
And pretend to be strong
With my arms wrapped around myself
Can you hear my silent cry for help?
Lost in my brokenness
Eyes closed hoping to find myself.